In my short time at PSI this summer, I have seen many different psychiatric symptoms that are likely indicative of an underlying disorder. To name a few:
- Suicidal ideation. When I asked one of the patients how she was doing that day, she replied, "Still breathing, unfortunately." Concerned, I asked, "Do you really mean that?" She told me that she did.
- Grandiose delusions. One patient adamantly believes that HIV does not exist. He insists that it was invented by the Surgeon General to make money off of antiretroviral drugs sold by the pharmaceutical companies.
- Paranoid traits. One patient here always thinks the world is out to get her. She often refuses to reply to the journal questions in my class, asking, "Why are you trying to pick my brain?". More than once, she has referred to herself and other patients as "guinea pigs" that doctors are using to test out antiretroviral medication.
- Antisocial traits. One patient used to belong to a machete-wielding gang in Puerto Rico, and has done hard time in jail for having dismembered body parts in his car. Despite this, he has no remorse.
- Symptoms of Conduct Disorder. I had the privilege of observing the Anger Management group, in which several patients described the extreme satisfaction they get out of physical aggression towards others.